Moving in two directions

I personally practise two kinds of spirituality . The first kind is the spirituality which you seek for the True Nature of the Mind and such a spirituality would be considered 'High Up' because you are seeking for that truth within . It is like as though I am climbing a ladder up wards to the True Nature . It is hard to put in words and as you observed from the way my words and sentences are phrased , I am really having a hard time bringing spirituality to mere human language . In short , when I seek the Nature of the Mind , I am climbing a ladder upwards .

The second type of spirituality I am practising is the Earth based spirituality . In common words, it is called Paganism . It helps to get one connected to Earth and that's why , it's called Earth Based . By practising Earth - based Paganism , you become closer in relation with Mother Earth . Practising Paganism in short , brings me grounded to Earth .

The more I practise the first kind of spirituality , which is finding my True Nature , the more I would be drawn downwards to the Earth . I hope you get the picture . I am trying to mean that , the more I go upwards to find my true nature ,the more I would yearn to be drawn back to the ground and the Earth to be grounded .

So what's the evidence of such a feeling to show that the more I seek my true nature , the more I am drawn down the ladder from mid heaven to the Earth ? Currently , my mind and heart could enter into the Void / Emptiness in meditation . Since I am moving closer to understanding the true nature , the more I want to be grounded . I feel like I want to go to a bank of a small , calm stream in a lonely woods and sit by the banks and observe nature and let myself be one with the Earth . Although I understand that all things are illusions and I should learn to be detached , my heart yearns to sink down to Earth and be close to Mother Earth .

The first spirituality option of climbing up the ladder allows me to work with energy with just pure thoughts and willpower and without the need of any tools or conventional restrain , but as my heart yearns for the Earth , I couldn't help but my heart still yearn to use tools from nature , like crystals and herbs ... to do workings of energy .

I would like to clarify about certain words above , before I end today's post . I do not mean that Paganism or Earth - based practises are 'Lowly' , just in case there's misunderstanding , and I don't mean that using tools shows that a person is weak or dependent . I do use some tools like mantras and paper talismans . I mean no offense for those who love Earth - based practises and those who love to use rituals and tools that these are lowly . No , these practises of Earth - based or the using of tools , especially from nature , are not lowly . In fact , I respect the use of these tools of nature and such Earth -based practise and I thought it is also pretty noble . And yes , I too occassionally use Earth - based practises and natural tools like water and herbals and stuff like these too in my practise ... and don't forget ....as I mentioned above, my heart still yearns for the Earth ... lol ..

In the current state , whenever I move a up the ladder , my heart would yearn for the Earth. Even the simple practises of the Earth can be pretty impressive and powerful ...

I am moving upwards and downwards ...in both directions ... As above...so below ...

* Blessings *